May 15, 2014: Oops.

Oops.

Will you forgive my behavior? I've royally messed up here. I went from January 5th, 2014 to May 15, 2014 without a single post. I'm awful. I'm so sorry. This semester took me on a run for my money. I barely passed one of my classes... but only because the professor is a royal asshat.

Take a look at my semester.

      

But alas, my junior year in college has come and gone. Wow. We had our banquet, where I was recognized verbally for all the extra work I do and how everyone appreciates it, and I also got a nice scholarship, although I have yet to find out how much it'll be worth.

Bryan & I at Banquet 2014

I'm now back at my parents' house until I go off to study abroad. Study abroad. Where you may ask? Ireland. I'm going to Ireland! I'm so excited and it's only 10 days away when I leave to go to London for a couple days and then go over to Limerick, Ireland for the next three weeks. And then I'll be back in the States by mid-June. 

Oh... and then in a new house. My parents decided to move! This threw me off when I heard about it. But hey, whatever suits their fancy. It'll be weird losing my childhood home. Imagine someone else living here... making new memories that replace the ones my family has had in this space. We loved this house well. It's been worn in. I'm sure a new family will take care of it just as well... hopefully. It's such a beautiful patch of home. 

I don't know if there's anything else to report, so have a lovely start to your summer vacation and I hope life treats you well.

 xoxo, Bridget

January 5, 2014: A Sunday Delight.

Hello, lovelies. What a chilly Sunday it has been. I haven't done much today. A nice relaxing day before going back to work tomorrow.

Sidebar: I love The Incredibles. Thus why Edna Mode is my quoter today. She knows the reality of things.

But alas. It is Sunday. I may take a page from my friend Desiree's blog. Sunday is the day of rest.

Have a happy Sunday evening, lovelies!

xoxo, Bridget

January 4, 2014: A world I don't live in.

I've been entranced by Gossip Girl. Their world of the Upper East Side in NYC. God, to live a fancy, rich life where I wouldn't have to care about money, status, or class. It reminds me of Ariel in The Little Mermaid. But then I remember that I'd be so over all the drama of the upper class. I could never be so 'prim and proper'. I don't think I could ever deal with the repercussions. So no, I don't want to be a part of this world. I don't think I could ever fit in. I'm not prim and proper. I'm not one to have my parents dictate who I can date and where I must go for college. I want to do what I want to do. I think that's all I can really ask for, right? Some sort of  f r e e d o m.

Aside from that, I haven't done much since New Years. How enthralling this new year is. I don't need to worry though. All good things come to those who wait. 

Or... actually to those who pursue them. 

But anyway. Speak of the devil. Somehow, things may get better. I shouldn't worry. I have two weeks until I am 21. Two weeks until I am into my second semester of Junior year. Two weeks. I think I can make it.

Sorry for the tangents. 

It's a very interesting mind I have.

xoxo, Bridget

January 3, 2014: A Friday Delight.

Good evening, lovelies. I may have started Gossip Girl tonight... don't mind me. That's a side note on this venture. Tonight, I want to venture into my thoughts and feelings. You know, those things that make you want to throw up inside because they are either too mushy gushy or too painfully dreadful? Yeah. Them.

Lately, my feelings have been all over the place. 

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                   n; a roller coaster of emotions. I've had some really crappy things happen and then some over the moon wonderful things come into being. Oh, and then those awkward situations happen that I just don't know what to do. Those always have to be thrown into the mix, right?

I have realized over the past few days that my feelings matter. Also, I have to experience them to get over the pain that they have caused me. Because sometimes, you just can't miss people anymore. You can't keep checking when they pop up online on Facebook. You can't keep looking to see if they post anything that might remotely be about you on Tumblr. You can't keep checking your phone for the nonexistent text that they send you. 

You can't miss them anymore.

Because people walk out of your life for a reason, whether you want them to or not. And maybe that's for the best. I need to take care of myself. By god, I turn 21 in two weeks. I need to have my act together. I won't let the bad feelings dictate my life anymore. I won't let the paranoia and the anxiety keep me from being the best me I can be. By god, 2014 is going to be MY YEAR. 

I think that's enough for a Friday evening.

xoxo, Bridget.

Jan 1-2, 2014: I already failed.

So, of course I already failed. Yesterday was to be the first day that I blogged in 2014. And I failed. I have nothing to blame but myself and the fact that I had a massive hangover that I was nursing pretty much all day.

Yesterday was a very rough day for me. Aside from the hangover, I was alone nearly all day trying to cope with the feelings that have been haunting me for the last week and a half. And no, I wasn't okay.

I tried ignoring them with the Nebraska vs. Georgia bowl game- WHICH WE KICKED BUTT.

GOOOO BIGGGG REDDDD

And then I watch Sherlock with a friend of mine. GOD DAMMIT SHERLOCK. The friend of mine and I then talked until about 8 PM. So, then I was by myself trying to cope. 

Feelings are hard. They also suck.

Overall, I'm glad 2013 is done. Aside from making it through alive, it wasn't my best year.

Today I haven't done much. But that's okay, I guess. I really should get out of bed.

That's it for today/yesterday. See you tomorrow.

xoxo, b.

a hopelessly enamoured introduction.

Hello. 

I'm Bridget, an almost 21 year old junior Film & New Media major at the Johnny Carson School of Theatre and Film that's at the University of Nebraska - Lincoln.

This is me to your left.

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Onto the things that really matter...

Like why this? Why now? And why here?

This: because I need an outlet to write again. I blog things on tumblr, but that isn't the same. I need to communicate through words, whether or not someone reads them.

Now: because why not? Now is the best time to do anything. I'm young. I'm hopelessly enamoured by life, and why not document it?

Here: because it's the best place for words to be seen, but not be seen. I don't care if people read this. If they do, they get an insight into my life, and truly, that means they may just understand me a bit more. And I'll be okay with that.

I wanted to start this for 2014. I understand that this is Friday, December 27th, 2013, but this is just an introductory post. I plan to start this blog on January 1st, 2014. I want to blog all through 2014. To see how I change in a single year. To see how TWENTY-ONE is. To understand myself.

Also, I want to take control of myself again. I feel like I am losing control and this is the best way to stabilize it.

So let's hear it to 2014.

FIVE days.