Good evening, lovelies. I may have started Gossip Girl tonight... don't mind me. That's a side note on this venture. Tonight, I want to venture into my thoughts and feelings. You know, those things that make you want to throw up inside because they are either too mushy gushy or too painfully dreadful? Yeah. Them.
Lately, my feelings have been all over the place.
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n; a roller coaster of emotions. I've had some really crappy things happen and then some over the moon wonderful things come into being. Oh, and then those awkward situations happen that I just don't know what to do. Those always have to be thrown into the mix, right?
I have realized over the past few days that my feelings matter. Also, I have to experience them to get over the pain that they have caused me. Because sometimes, you just can't miss people anymore. You can't keep checking when they pop up online on Facebook. You can't keep looking to see if they post anything that might remotely be about you on Tumblr. You can't keep checking your phone for the nonexistent text that they send you.
You can't miss them anymore.
Because people walk out of your life for a reason, whether you want them to or not. And maybe that's for the best. I need to take care of myself. By god, I turn 21 in two weeks. I need to have my act together. I won't let the bad feelings dictate my life anymore. I won't let the paranoia and the anxiety keep me from being the best me I can be. By god, 2014 is going to be MY YEAR.
I think that's enough for a Friday evening.
xoxo, Bridget.
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